My Sweet Boy

“Hi Prince!”

You’re close to 3 months old now. 12 weeks.  That seems unreal.  As the saying goes, “time flies”.

You came into the world quickly.  Not too quick that I couldn’t get my beloved epidural.  But you made your appearance in half the time it took your sister.  It’s showing more and more of your personality.  A takes her sweet time in life.  You, Prince, you’re like your Momma.  You want things to happen.  And you want them to happen yesterday.

You were immediately alert and ready to learn about the world.  You lifted your head within the first few MINUTES of your life.  And you looked right at me.  You were so focused as if to say, “Hey, I’m new here, but I know who you are.  You’re my momma.”

A has been such a great big sister.  You are so blessed.  I, as you will someday know and understand, am an only child.  That means I don’t have any brothers or sisters.  It doesn’t mean that I didn’t have a good childhood, but it does mean that I don’t understand the bond you and A have already at such a young age.  And, truly, it makes me a little jealous.  Mainly, because, as I said, you are blessed with a sister who will give you a lifetime of entertainment, protection, and probably sibling rivalry and battles, too.

You have another big sister, though she has 4 legs and a lot of hair.  Auty, too, has been so protective of you.  She was the same with A, but has taken on her role of “protector” all over again.  I think she realizes now with A that she doesn’t need to protect her anymore, rather SHE needs protected from the random flying objects, intermittent screaming and temper tantrums and excessive amounts of overly affectionate love.  Right now, she needs to protect you from A and her shenanigans.

Everyone says you look like me.  We all thought A looked like me, but now?  She still looks more like me than Daddy, but you, sweet boy.  You are definitely me.  

It would make sense that you’re so much like me.  You’re birthday isn’t even a week after mine.  6 days after my 28th birthday, you blessed us with your presence.

I call you ‘Prince’.  Daddy says I’m going to give you a complex.  Though, you smile every time I say it.  And your smile lights up my world.  I also call you ‘Prince’ because you’re quite opinionated about life and what you want.  You’ve mellowed slightly, but wow.  I’m not lying when I say that your daddy and I looked at each other during one of your screaming matches in the hospital, and said “think we can come back and get him in a few months?”  You were very vocal, to say it nicely.

Baby boy, already I know you will grow up.  And all too quickly.  Your sister is now 2 and that, too, seems unreal.  I’m going to do my best to raise you in the same way we are raising A.  To be respectful and honest.  To have a love of life and of people.  To have a love of GOD and shout it from the mountains.  We’re going to have disagreements, I’m sure, but you need to know that I will always love you, no matter what.  Someday, I hope that you and/or your sister will make me a grandma (though, let’s hold off on that for at least another 20 years, please).  There will be a time when you leave me and marry a fine young woman and I pray daily for that day that you find your soul mate.  You don’t know yet the need, the absolute necessity to have a good person by your side.

Your daddy is an amazing man.  It took him awhile to realize what being a dad looked like with A.  This time around, he has nailed it.  He has been such a helpful, kind, compassionate man.  He has let me cry on his shoulder when I have had too much. He cried when you were born too, by the way.  You are going to have a wonderful man to learn the ways of the world from.

So for now, prince, we’ll keep doing what we’re doing.  You’ll keep growing and learning from your sister.  I will keep pushing forward even on our hard days.  Because I know one day I will look back and wonder where you went.  Why you grew up too quickly.  And I will cherish this time.  Our time.

❤ Momma


Duggar Problems

More news has surfaced about The Duggar family recently.  And it gets me thinking.

Though I’ve been fairly absent lately, I do still ‘think’ a lot.  However those thought provoking revelations don’t often make it to fruition, as they’re often jumbled with thoughts about baby poop, and when the toddler last had her diaper changed, and did I remember to take the dog out today?

That being said, it’s safe to say that it takes me a few days, sometimes even weeks, to catch up on the news.  The extent of the knowledge I have about what’s going on in the outside world is through my Facebook feed (shout out to my friends who are keeping me ‘informed’). 

Our newest family member is now close to 3 months old, and I feel like it’s time for me to get back into life, so to speak.  Catch up.  Say my little bit on the controversial news happening in the world.

The Duggar family, as you may well know, surfaced a few months ago when it was brought to light the oldest son’s alleged sexual abuse of his younger sisters.  Evidently this was something the family had buried in the past and was, by their standards, “appropriately handled” at the time it happened.  I’ll admit, I don’t know the full extent of the story.  To be honest, I never really enjoyed their particular show.  Partly because I think the mother is nuts for having that many kids.  I can barely hold my own with two.  And let’s not even go there with my pregnancy and birth experiences.  But for me, watching another families daily experiences is just not really that interesting.  If I have my choice, I’d rather watch something along the lines of HGTV’s Fixer Upper.  Though, I do enjoy Duck Dynasty, because let’s be honest, we’re a bunch of rednecks up here in our neck of the woods.

As a Christian, ‘thou shalt not judge’.  And this is something I have been adamant about in my life.

Full disclosure: I’m having trouble not judging this latest news on Josh Duggar and his admission to having been a part of a dating website for married couples to commit adultery.  Everyone has their “thing”.  Their ‘capital sin’ if you will.  For me, that’s cheating.  I don’t care if you’re married or just dating.  Cheating on your significant other, no matter what the context, is just low.

So to find out this latest chapter of the saga, well, as I said.  I’m having trouble not judging.

But the real point I’m trying to make is this.  Idol worship.  It’s a problem.  It’s a very real and very large problem.

So many people, my own friends even, came to the rescue of this family, defending them with the first scandal.  Though I think it’s great that the family has people who support them, I feel like as an outsider are we ‘supporting’ them?  Or are we idolizing them?

I fear that if we really sit down and think about it, not just with the Duggar family but across the board, we are idolizing a lot of people and things, other than our One True North.

Here’s a family, who has been portrayed to be the ‘perfect’ Christian family (if there even is such a thing).  When that perfect Christian family falls, we get upset.  Should we be upset?

The reality is that we are not meant to be perfect.  God didn’t intend for us to look up to anyone other than Him.  Sure there are certain brothers and sisters of faith who might have it a little more ‘put together’ than some of us.  And that’s certainly a good example to follow.  But we need to keep in mind that we all have our ‘things’.  Someone who struggles with a certain sin might look to someone who doesn’t partake in that particular transgression and say “Hey!  They’re a perfect Christian!”  Though, that ‘perfect Christian’ might have something else that they struggle with, even if it isn’t as transparent to the rest of the world.

My point is this: I don’t think we should be getting THAT upset and come to the defense of Josh Duggar. Do I think he is wrong for what he’s done, both in the distant and the more recent past?  Sure do.  I should think we could all learn a lesson or two from his mistakes.  Do I think we should be defending him and his family because they are our fellow brothers and sisters?  Not a chance.

I think, if anything, right now, we should pray.  Pray for healing through the Lord for Josh and his family.  Pray for other’s in our world who may be in the same situation, but maybe not as much in the public eye.  I think we should pray for the corruption of our world that someone would even have thought to create a dating website specifically for those interested in cheating on their significant others.  And more than anything else, I think we should pray for ourselves that we may be focused on Him, and Him alone; that we not be sidetracked and distracted by anyone else’s walk, slow crawl or fast run with their own faith.

❤ Erin